when i gather my thoughts, i will write all about it.  for now, let me just say, NEVER, EVER, EVER give up hope!

for welcoming me back it truly makes it feel good I have been so down but I know that is not healthy. I can see and tell there are some very good hearted people that have wound up in the same situation as me.   While I  have no clue why my son quit talking to me the time has reached an insane amount now at almost 6 years.Going forward I try to remain positive and I wish you all peace and I hope that better days are in store for all of us that suffer this heartbreaking pain. Here's to a good…

 Here I am back after a long time away. My situation hasn't changed with my ES. I guess I try to not think about it and I know the site can be helpful. Reality is, it has been 6 years in March, since my son spoke to me. His life has gone on and they had a baby boy who will be 1 this month. I have  seen pictures but never have seen him. I am beginning to think that things will never change, as I have hoped and prayed and they remain the…

I'm very tired, but wanted to check in here with you dear ladies as I know you have carried me a lot emotionally with carrying this child as well as carrying the heartbreak over two adult children lost to estrangement.

Our son arrived on December 30th.  The labor was intensive as was the delivery.  I lost a lot of blood, and apparently 24 hours later still had things remaining in me after the birth (there is a debate on whether it was placenta (I had an abruption just after he…

After 7 years of serial estranging from my 23 year old son, I'm done.

This 4th estrangement came about at the end of his Summer visit to Ky...just as he was reporting for duty to be stationed in Pearl Harbor HI in the Navy.

I think of "gaslighting" as doing whatever it takes to force a conflict.... which in our case is to dog out my younger son who is only 10.  I desperately tried to avoid the fight...which was a texting war, to no avail.  He got what he wanted, and left for…